Making a Plan

Where has this week gone?  Zack's sister, Kaci, came and stayed with us for two nights...while she had an interview at a medical school in downtown Norfolk.  We had a great time and it was wonderful to have some company in the evenings after putting Noah to bed.  After she left...it made me realize just how lonely I was and I broke down and cried.  I think I can count on one hand the amount of times that I've broke down and cried during this deployment.  This was a conscious choice.  It's a pointless and a waste of energy.  I had to stay strong and stand tall for myself and mostly for Noah.  I also had a great time at BSF(bible study) this week.  I mentioned to the ladies about feeling nervous about us adjusting as a family...and they gave me some great advice.  I will have to let go of the control...which will be a major feat.  And I will have to pick my battles and bite my tongue until we get on the same page.  My cousin and amazing friend, Dawn, also gave me this advice.  She is a navy wife and knows exactly what I'm feeling.  And so I will have to put that advice into practice when Zack comes home.  This ship is on it's way and Homecoming is approaching.  And I'm beginning to get prepared for him to come home...meaning hurrying up and take care of those things that I know will upset him if he came home today! LOL.  I have moved out all of my things that had slowly moved into "his" spaces.  I know he will have to adjust to being home with and relearning our routine and learning about taking care of Noah.  I know he will do great...he was wonderful taking care of Noah before he left.  I am ready for him to come home.  I am ready not to have lonely evenings.  I am ready to have my best friend back.  And above all...I am ready to have my family back together.  Godspeed U.S.S. Harry S. Truman.